Just to prove that I'm still alive.

I've got so much work in my hands. Somebody shoot me so I can die in peace and go to heaven. Wrote a to-do list this morning, and I've got to get 8 major things done by the end of the weekend. Why oh why did I go to the movies last night !!? Well, gee. Cause I thought I needed time-out. A girl needs her breathing space. And haven't been spending time with her baby at all.. And he deserves a little of her attention in the midst of the mess she's in. Grr.. Anyway, it's not like I regret it, but..
Dear God, why can't we have more hours in a day !!? Like 27 instead of 24? So a girl can finish her work and actually get a decent nights' sleep.

Was in Sky Bar last Friday with the girls for Wena's birthday. Omg, I miss those fun times filled with laughter and nonsense. Damn, I'm looking forward to that Bangkok trip !! This is all that stupid LHT's fault!! And then the next day, WT had to add to the excitement. Grr. Photos to be uploaded soon..

Fish Spa.. Here we come!!

Anxiety Takin Over.

Last year, my seniors warned us that life is gonna be tough once we get into our third year. We were all like, yeah right. We're living in hell already anyway.. How would our third year be any different? Here's a hint. Damn thesis!! I've got deadlines every week from now on, and on the most unlucky weeks, we have 2! Not to mention quizzes. And ECHO deadlines are coming up! And our damn newsletter! ahh! Thank God we've seen the last of surveys !! For the rest of the year, hopefully. Lol. Them terrible things.. We're cursed. I was practically begging everyone, friends and strangers alike to participate in my survey. Oh gosh, thesis research coming up. Anyone fancy being my, participant? Pretty please? Lol.

So I need a Knight in shining Armour to save me from all this pain.

I need to call it Quits

I'm so tired! I'm tired of sleeping late, I'm tired of all the research I have to do, I'm sick of journals on pdf, I'm tired of going to thol & ebsco & Google!! It's the perfect time to be in bed but nooo, I'm juggling between Internet Explorer (with journals on a few tabs, mind you!), Adobe Reader & Microsoft Word. Seriously. Oh, with The Longest Yard playing on the smallest box you've ever seen in your life at the bottom of my screen. Not even paying attention to it, it's just keeping me awake.

And yeah, tomorrow's a public holiday. No holiday for me anyway. My eye bags became worse despite the fact that I'm supposed to be getting my beauty sleep. Omg!!

The boyfriend is away for the weekend. Kind of.. Fishing trip, something like that. So I figured hey, we could have our Me Time. So much for 'Me Time'. Sigh.. I'm still too busy to do anything. Sorry Ryn, I am so well aware that we were supposed to hangout this week. I'll probably have less on my plate next week.

I'm sooo tired. I need to hire a Jocelyn look alike as my PA. Seriously.

Lol. This is the zombie speaking at 4 in the a.m.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont les mots qui vont très bien ensemble,
Très bien ensemble.

Can't help it. He's so funnily charming. Minus the hair..

Sorry, had a doze too much of American Idol today. It was playing back to back all day man, seriously!! If I wasn't busy with the damn autism review, I tell you. It wouldn't be running all day.

Toodles.

Another good reason to leave!!

I found another reason to leave this country!! Bad drivers I tell you.. Old men and women who don't know how to drive or drive worse than P drivers and yet they curse them like hell.. Effing drivers!! Imma start pretending that I have PTSD and suddenly lost all my ability to drive! Even if its a bloody sports car.

You know what's worse? These effing drivers on roundabouts. Yeah, sure we stereotype lorry drivers, truck drivers, bus drivers and the such to be unscrupulous drivers, but these fools (doesn't matter what car they are driving), they are as bad.. ^$#@&*^

I hate it when they just wanna block you for no reason when their turning is meng meng jammed packed!! Not only my side will be blocked, you can't even move if you block me so what is the effing point of blocking me in the first place !?!?!??! *&^%$#^!!

Fools!! You block me for what!!? If you'd just calm down and let me pass through then the bloooody roundabout wouldn't be stuck, stups!! What are you, 3 !!? And you don't even have the brains to put on your effing signals and you honk me when I have to push my way through. What are you, retarded !?! If no one's gonna let me through I obviously have to fight my way through, stups! I don't wanna be stuck there all evening because of these effing people. Don't even know how to describe them anymore..
Wtf is wrong with you people? Got half your brain eaten by maggots !?

Another thing that irritates me is people slowing down when the traffic light is green and stop in time when it turns red!! OMG!! Hello, green means go so you speed up a little to make it in time to cross over to the other side BEFORE the traffic lights turn red!! And you know what irritates me more than these traffic light maniacs!!? Those who drive so slowly when it's green that they are the ONLY ones who get to pass to the other side BEFORE the lights turn red again that the people behind has to speed through. Yeah, and those poor souls who have poor hearts will just stop and wait for their turn the next round. WTF !!? It's a fast moving world, everyone's in a hurry, so if you're planning to take it slow then drive on the effing slow lane. Don't hog the fast lane, stups!!Omg!! Your mother never teach you manners ar !!?

Phew. And I have to pass through that roundabout every day.. It's not that bad, it's only bad when I have to struggle out from that particular exit. The only way home from campus without having to go through that ridiculous jam to USJ. So there.. I need to leave this country so I don't die young.. Meanwhile, the PTSD plan sounds good.

Apple Juice

I love apple juice, among other things..

So when we were out for dinner yesterday and there was this promotion for some apple juice thingy in Sushi King, yours truly just had to have it.

See!! And I think they put less sugar in it or something.. It was nice anyway..

And how small it is when baby holds it. Grr.. Oh well. It lasted all my dinner and carried it all the way to the cinema anyway.. (Finished it before going into the cinema, obviously!) And we watched What Happens in Vegas. Funny but predictable.. So there. Vin literally fell asleep in the cinema, poor baby..

Highlight of the day:
1.Had lunch in MichaelAngelo or something for Lecturer's Appreciation Day. Right.. And well, Mia Palencia was there performing; and wow! Always wanted to go to her performances whenever Clare & Brennan goes but timing was always an issue. I mean, I know she's good and all that, we have her CDs, I listen to it whenever Clare plays it, but wow. It's different when it's live and unplugged okay! Anyway, bought her latest CD (heard it already, all you peeps should invest in it, btw. And no, I don't get anything for telling you this. Ya'll should support our local music anyway..) for Clare as a belllaaaaaated birthday present. Got it signed, took loads of photos but I don't have them at the moment so that'll be posted later on.

2. I have a new lap top!! Er.. Not mine technically. It belongs to my family and thus is to be shared among my family members. Ahh. Nevertheless, it's our new baby !! Muahaha. Finally gave up cause we're so fed up of fighting for the one we had.. Now we can do our assignments together and we don't even have to fight.. Clare and I, that is.

Happy Mother's Day

"God couldn't be everywhere, so he created Mothers."
I think it's from Proverbs, a book from the Bible.. Yeah, I know it is kind of cliched. But still it holds some sort of a meaningful thing, ya know.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers, and of course, most of all to my mother! Since I'm the firstborn, I always feel special on Mother's Days. And Father's Days. Seriously. There is a sense of superiority being the first child because if it wasn't for us, then our parents wouldn't have been mommies and daddies yet. Ever thought of that? Well, actually they probably would be anyway by some other child, some other human being, but hey!! It's us who won the race! I mean. Lets not get into details now.. But it's me who made my parents, parents first and therefore I am.. special!
Ahh. You get what I mean.

The again, seeing what my mom goes through and seeing what other moms go through, I really don't think I can handle being a mom. I don't see the prospects of me being a good mother.. Therefore, I don't think I'll have kids in the future.. It is a lifetime commitment man.. And when they grow up, they'll only get on your nerves!! What's the point of sacrificing and suffering all your life so that they'll grow up and get on your nerves!!? Seriously. I mean, my mom's lucky cause she ended up with me and I don't get on her nerves. Really, I'm a saint. Yeah, right.. See what I mean!!? Then again.. When all of my friends celebrate Mother's Day with their kids every year, what am I gonna do !!? Stay home and rot !? I mean, there's an entire day dedicated to moms every year man, should I waste it !!?! Omg.. So confusing. Will crack my head more when I settle down and get married laa. If I get married.

Back to the present- Anyway, we had to celebrate our very own Mother's Day yesterday night because today was gonna be done with the gang. So we went to Italliannies in The Curve and blimey, it was a bigg mistake going yesterday instead of today. Moms actually get to eat for free on Mother's Day and deng! We were a day too early. Darn it!
Oh well. So today we went to the same ole' place we go with the gang on every occasion where all the kids will sweat while the moms talk about how tragic someone's life is and the dads will drink till they start talking nonsense. Lol. Not really.. When I say 'kids', we're really all in Uni already. And when I say 'how tragic someone's life is', they're really talking about their husbands, and when I say 'drink', they really have learned how to control themselves. Lol. We all love to be a lil' tipsy every now and then, don't we? Laa. Admit it!
All in all, it wasn't such a bad celebration. It brought our families closer because we were with the people we love.

Happy Mother's Day, mom! Hope you like the present as much as you said you did.. Lol. Muacks.

Student Leaders

So this morning we had to wake up soooo darn early to go for that darn it scholarship awards thingy to add to our credit hours to get a High Achiever's Award.



It's like the highest award you can get for being a student leader. Being in ECHO makes me eligible for it, so sue me! All I have to do is help out in events that are not planned by ECHO but other student leader bodies or the SSD itself for 30 hours. So I have about 13 + now, and still counting.. Ahh. Can't wait.. I actually have an award for being in Student Council last year already, but I'm greedy so there ! Lol. Not really.. I just really need to get a scholarship, or better yet, scholarships for my postgrad.. I really don't have a choice. You think I really like to sacrifice all my time doing what I'm doing !!? Well, I don't mind actually. Half the time it is fun.. But still. I'd really like some more Me Time.



So anyway, I had to wake up at 630 in the a.m. !! And when we got there, we were actually early. I mean, Cassie & I. So then they let u go and have breakfast where we stared at each other bitching about how much more sleep we could have gotten. Cassie would have gotten at least half and hour more, and I would at least get to sleep for another 45 minutes (due to logistics).



Anyway, it was actually quite fun because we were mixing around with other student leaders as well, all of whom we rarely meet. To be quite frank, we are pretty stuck up people and we only mix with our own people. Lol. Okay, that was meant to be a joke. But Arwooo joined Sports Council recently, and that made life sooo much nicer. I mean, when we get to work together of course. It's nice to see our fellow Psychology mates outside the Psyc Department.



After that we had lunch, where we finally get to rest our butts down joking and fooling around with the other peeps. There should be more opportunities for us to mix together, really.. Hint.






Cass and Arwoo.. See how cool our T-shirts are !! It glows!!!! It's a plus that they have my size. Unlike last year the council shirt was bad..!! Not only was it so weird we had to design our own unofficial T-shirt BUT I was practically drowning in it cause some guys, ain't naming names decided that it's cool to wear an 'S' while the girls have to wear it in 'XL'.

That's Adrian, been trying to tell him he'd look awesome with contacts. Not that he doesn't already without it..
Adrian, Cass, myself, Tyng (fellow A&P mate) & Terence (lame-o advisor & editor)

Where is Vin !!?

It's my first day of holiday. Well, it's suppose to be next monday but since I don't have classes on Fridays, so duh!

Baby's in Penang because he's got some work to do there. Then he's gonna spend the weekend with his family in Taiping where they are, seeing that he is already up north he might as well spend Mother's Day there. I hope that's really on his mind.. Since I am on holiday and I finally get to relax, he had to leave me here alone. Well, I'd have gone with him if it wasn't because I have to be in Uni tomorrow. Ishk. Sacrifices. Painful! Anyway, he left last night after a quick bite with me, supposedly called dinner, and I haven't heard from him ever since!! Seriously. Well, he did call but because I practically zonked off by 10 in the p.m. I hardly realised it. I think he called on 2 counts though.. Don't remember what he said. Didn't even know if he stayed the night over in Penang or Taiping. At 4 something in the a.m. he said in his text that he was out with Bernard and was going to bed (tired ya, baby!!?). He said he was out with Bernard, seeing that I know he's got 2 friends named Bernard, I suspect that he went straight back to Penang. Here's why:

1. Bernard, the Chinese Bernard (who is a Penangite himself) is still in KL at the moment, which I suspect was sleeping well in his nice new house in KK at 4 in the a.m.

2. As far as I am concerned, Bernard, the Chinese Bernard sleeps reasonable early (and by that I mean before 2 or 3 and definitely not 4 in the a.m.) unless he's out fishing.

3. Plus, he just came back from Penang!! Why in the world would he go there 3 days after coming back here!?

4. Bernard, the Indian Bernard I really don't know much about because I only met him once, stoop. But from the little I remembered, the last time Vin was back in Penang, not onl was he was out with this Bernard but this Bernard even slept over his place (supposedly by the beach, which he has never brought me to YET because we can't find the time). However, I can't be TOO sure if this Bernard is from Taiping or Penang.

5. I'm pretty sure that Bernard IS in Penang, regardless of where he's FROM.

So whatever it is, I finally concluded that Baby was back in Penang because no matter which Bernard it was, they must have been in Penang.

Phew.

Whatever it is, I'm pretty sure he's in Penang now anyway.. Penang. Food. Yum. See! Painful sacrifices.. I really miss going there for eating trips.

Here's a really random photo of us, both reasonable high in Ruby's birthday party a couple of weeks ago..

Anyway, is there anyone who can help me out with making my blog a better place to be in !? I really wanna learn how to design moi own blog with whatever I like rather than use the ones I can pick from because then I don't get to be different anymore.. *Pouts* I don't mean to sound blonde but what's CSS & html & Dreamweaver & & Fireworks & all that!? Only know these words from ECHO meetings cause only Terence, Adrian and MJ use them Frankly, I think half of ECHO don't know ok. Don't act smart.. Lol. At least I think these words has got loads to do with making my blog a better place to be in.
Help me !! Anybody?

Happy Holidays! not.

It's been an incredibly long week and I finally realised that students really do commit suicide cause they can't take the stress anymore!!

I'm finally on my mid-term break, not long, just one week but hey, that is one week of finally getting enough sleep!! I hope. I really hope so.. It has to happen. It must! I mean, the length of my lifetime has probably shortened itself by at least 10 years (against my free will, of course) than it orginally was supposed to be, by the grace of God because I've been sleeping as minimal as possible. As if life isn't short enough!! Hrmmph.
Back to my so called holidays, (one week! kiamsap!) I wouldn't even call it a holiday. Yeah, so we don't have to go for classes, and yeah, finally don't have to wake up before the clock strikes 8 FIVE days a week (4 + Sundays), but I have an entre pile of assignments. Make that 2 please, waiter! From ground to ceiling.. So there, as my classmate had put it right after our lecturer dismissed class yesterday "Happy Assignment Week, everyone!!". Lol.. Hint hint. I need a break.

So now that this is out of my chest, I need to complain about ECHO!!! THEY FREAKIN postponed the publication of the first issue by more than a month !!!! And had to tell us, the A & P department right after we had our timeline all planned out for the year! What !!? So we're no writers or photographers, we shouldn't be informed !!? You need us ok ! Otherwise the whole damn University will not read the mag at all. Fine, maybe one or two. But you still need us.. So now we have to make ammendments because the show must go on, as they say. And this is not even affecting them.. No, no one feels bad as if we haven't got enough on our plates. Not only that, but Nick (treasurer & photographer) actually introduced everyone in ECHO in Coffee Stops except the whole of A & P. The cheek of him! Therefore, the four of us are going on strike one of these days. Oh ya'll just wait and see. Not to mention the fact that they did not even allocate some money for us when they expect us to promote ECHO. How !!? You tell me how!!!???!!? How are we suppose to do our jobs well if we don't have any money!!? Teach me teach me. Lol.. And we have 2 ACCA students in our A & P department. How ironic. Lol.. Omg!! I just realised that I'm classmates with Cassie and Andrea's classmates with Su Tyng. Hah! Fancy that.. Bet you weren't smart enough to figure that out, Cass. Lol!!

Totally off topic, here's the very first ever in history, ECHOnline. I told you right!!? We're the college/uni coolest magazine ever because of us!! And by us, I mean A & P ok. Ishk.

Randomness again.

What's your stand on capital punishment?


Do we actually have the right to take the lives of human beings? Who are we to decide who lives and who dies?

Then again what do we do with inhumane people !!? Think Josef Fritzl. Think John Jamelske. Think of all the rapists, serial killers, funny weird people who'd do irrational things. Anyway..


As it is we are already running out of food and resources and people are fighting for food and food is getting so expensive. So there.. Why should we keep on feeding these people, for free!!? They don't even work for it.


My point is, Fritzl raped his daughter. Nothing new, right? You hear that a lot here, grandfathers raping 11 year old granddaughters, this this that that. BUT!! He raped for, for 24 years !! And he locked her up in a dungeon for more than half her life.. She's got 7 of his kids, I tell you !! SEVEN. He's already got 7 legal children of his own. Hah. Imagine that! You've got to give it to him though.. How many people do you know living in this century having 14 children from 2 women, one of them his daughter! Frankly, the thought of incest is disgusting.


So, what do we do with people like this !!? Lock them up for the rest of their lives and feed them free food?

Bloggin' triumphs LD, sorry..

My stoooooooopid LD assignment is due on Thursday.
And I was hoping that I'd complete it by tonight!

But no !! I had to waste the entire afternoon trying to make my blog look like a better place to be in. After hours of painstaking trials, I'm gonna just face it. I'm technology illiterate. With the Words document saved as "Term Paper.Review.LD." on one window (which I have not given two looks at, btw), I've been google-ing on tutorials of how to make my blog a better place to be. Lol. And, of course reading everyone elses' blogs. Gives me the exact semangat I need to blog and, totally ignore the fact that I should be doing my research. So gonna live to regret this.

I came across an "old friend's" blog. No. She wasn't my friend. And I certainly don't see the prospects of us ever being friends. Anyway, everyone seemed to really like her as if she's really the angel that she claims to be. It looks to me as if she's really likeable and that everyone likes being her friend. BFFs even! Funny how she never fails to give me the exact opposite impression of what everyone has of her. And I'm just curious as to why she swore us to eternal enemy-ship. Why me!!? Not that I'm bothered. She's literally a pathetic fly flying past my very bright pathway. Frankly, I don't hate her.. I just don't want to have anything to do with her. Sigh. What is it do you all see in her that I don't!!? Please God, let me see that too. I don't wanna rot in hell just because the no-good-fly keeps crossing my path! Or better yet, maybe these suckers are just pretending to like her and they actually can't stand her either.. (Note to self: Do not EVER bump into her AGAIN because last week's bump was like being in a horror movie). Bet she was bitching about me again to people I've never seen in my life. Oh, you no-good-lil'-TWEET!

On a slightly brighter tone, I'm addicted to instant mashed potatoes!! The best thing about them is that they are instant and therefore make my life a whole lot easier and the world so much a better place to live in!!

Vin's sleeping in again. Probably.. The usual thing that he does at this time of the day of the week. Either that of he woke up aeons ago, playing darn it computer games and decided to ignore me! Seeing that I can only pick from these two options, imma pick the former one to let moi soul relax a lil'.

Speaking of which, what is it with you people and computer games? Yeah, so play for a while, get your mind off things for an hour or so, then back to reality, right? But waste the entire day away playing some endless game somehow does not sound appealing to me, at all. Certainly does not benefit any aspect of your life, whatsoever. Unless you're like some computer game designer or something laa. Or you really do play games to make a living.. Then I rest my case. BUT !! Baby's in the fashion industry. Shoes!! Sigh.. Imma shut up now.

Here's a really random photo. I think we were having Indian food in Mantra, Pyramid.

(Photo taken by Ryn, the great-photographer-wannabe)

3 Movies and 1 Dessert

Had a strong craving for dessert today.




SO!! I had to device a plan.

1. Clare (moi darling sister) to feel exactly the same. Turned out, she wanted to have some sunshine bun from SS2 too!!

2. Baby. To want the exact same thing.. Well. The plan could have come through if it wasn't for football AGAIN!

Anyway, cheerios to Man U for the 4:1.



Therefore, dessert had to wait for football to pass. And then we headed for the nearest dessert place since time was wasting away. Beans.





Baby's "lame" look. Courtesy of Clare's expert photo-taking. Yeah. Right. Also included, the Chivas-tasting-thong-sui. Won't be surprised if the three of us end up with some stomach ish problem tomorrow. It's just a matter of time..

Photo with Clare, something we haven't done in a long time. Taking pictures together!! Here's the joke.. See the fork there?? The one Clare's holding? She was suppose to 'comb' her hair with that. If only Vin the worst photographer in the making didn't take 10 whole minutes to snap one pathetic picture! Dare to blame my phone summ0re!! Grr. Lol.. I love you anyway baby!

As for the movies.. Well, I've been watching movies fo 3 consecutive days! Ain' complaining.. Apparently it's quality time with baby because he's wayy too tired to do anything else. And by 'anything else' I mean shopping, socializing or even communicating. Get your mind straight! Heh. Anyway, if this goes on summore, I'd be expecting to watching a movie a day with you for the rest of our lives baby! Muacks.

Shoot Me!

I, of all people know that I should be shot right in the middle of my big head. So, I don't need anyone to remind me.



I should be bloggin more. I really do want to blog!! I just happen to be a terrible blogger!! Sigh.



Anyway, I just had the worst week of my life. From Monday morning to Wednesday night, I had approximately 7 hours of sleep and that ain't cool. The very reason of this is because I had 2 deadlines, one on Tuesday for some Military Psychology term paper and Wednesday for my Thesis proposal for the Board of Ethics to approve (If you really want to know what my thesis is about, just ask me. I can't afford to sound too much of a nerd here.. Maybe I'll post something on it in the future, when I truly can't take it anymore and need to complain with high hopes that people will pity me!) Lol. Fortunately, I survived it all. What no one knows is that I woke up a complete zombie, practically stoned on Thursday at 830 in the a.m. because my family thought it was cool to wake me up to see how I'd pull through the day! Not really.. We had togo to church because it was a day of Obligation- The Ascension of Jesus Christ. If you don't know what I'm talking about, here's the perfect opportunity to test the wonders of Google, if you don't already know how amazing it is. Anyway, back to my stoned moments without having to ingest/inhale any form of substance. I just don't remember how I managed to get out get out of bed, wash, showered, brushed my teeth, dressed, light make up on, and get into the car in 20 minutes. I can't even do those as fast on a normal day, let alone a hangover day! What amazes me is that I even have the decency to put some make up on to hide the marks of a "drunked".



See, I'm not a bad student. I actually started working on my assignments and thesis proposals weeks ago. I'm just not productive if I know that I have time to waste. I'm a great at procrastinating and I work a hell lot better last minute. Think i've mentioned that before.. But never in my life have I taken so long to finish one research!! I always finish it the night before at latest, all printed out and stapled together. Oh well.. As for the thesis proposal, it was completely my fault. See, I have a perfectionist of a supervisor and I decided to show him my draft at the last possible minute. He had to change left and right of everything, and that took up a lot of time because I needed to do more research, bloody time consuming, I tell you! Had to stay out all night to ensure that I don't fall asleep at all. Thankfully, Man U vs. Barcelona was the highlight of the night therefore Vin and Brennan (my sister's boyfriend) was out watching football anyway. So I had company.. Then again, not really. They were outside where the TV was, watching it with the rest of the smokers who decided that they should pollute the air- same place same time together. So I stayed indoors and enjoyed the air-cond all by myself! Seriously, at 3 in the a.m. I had McD's all to myself!!



Anyway.. I went on a date yesterday!! With Vin, of course. Duh !! Yesh, finally !! I can't even remember when was the last time we did anything fun together, just the both of us. Friends & family are always around. Not that I'm complaining, they are all harmless fun. BUT!! I need a little jut "you and me" time with my baby every once in a while !! So we went to 1u, had lunch, get-to know-each-other window-shopping, watched Ironman (super must watch, peeps!!), actual-hunt-for-specific-item shopping, baby got himself a CD (of which I get to enjoy for free, lol), had dinner, and got home by 10 because we were both zonked!



More about the get-to-know-each-other winow-shopping. We went into random stores, and head to specific areas and Vin'll have to guess which item I'd get if I have to buy something for myself. But this is not before he tells me which one he'll get for me if I wasn't there and he HAS to get me at least ONE item. Lol. Then we'll go to the mens' and then it's my turn to do the guessing. Loads of fun. Wasn't worth it to really buy anything since the Megasale is coming up in 10.. woops, 9 days !! I'd be lucky if I even have the time to actually go shopping. I missed the last one, for real !!